https://5pmtapes.com Unplanned late-afternoon voice transcripts on gay loneliness, grief, ambition, and learning to say what I want out loud. en-gb https://5pmtapes.com/tape-9/ https://5pmtapes.com/tape-9/ Hello everyone, and welcome to episode nine of my podcast. What feels miraculous about recording these over the past week and a half is how genuinely I enjoy it—I don't need to perform, be acknowledged, or be applauded. I just sit here… https://5pmtapes.com/tape-8/ https://5pmtapes.com/tape-8/ I started recording this late at night just for myself, already in tears. Even though I've known intellectually that childhood trauma affects me—that I was a traumatized kid who lived in survival mode for years—I don't think it had ever… https://5pmtapes.com/tape-7/ https://5pmtapes.com/tape-7/ Welcome back to the podcast. I just had my weekly therapy session, which these days is midweek in the afternoon. My therapist's name is Arthur, and we've been working together for about a year now. Arthur has been monumental for my healing. https://5pmtapes.com/tape-6/ https://5pmtapes.com/tape-6/ Welcome to episode six of my podcast. It is late afternoon now, and I just finished a gym session. The reason I want to podcast right now is that I could feel a wave of grief, sadness, and emptiness after finishing my workout. I sat… https://5pmtapes.com/tape-5/ https://5pmtapes.com/tape-5/ Welcome to episode five of my podcast. I can't believe I am podcasting—I never thought this would be a hobby that I would do. This is something that I merely enjoy, not something I plan to make a big fuss or a career out of. I just like… https://5pmtapes.com/tape-4/ https://5pmtapes.com/tape-4/ Welcome to episode four of my podcast. I can't believe this is the fourth episode of me using my voice for self-expression and having these solo podcasts. In this podcast, I want to talk a bit about gay loneliness, and the gay… https://5pmtapes.com/tape-3/ https://5pmtapes.com/tape-3/ Hello, and welcome to episode three of my solo podcast. I can't believe I'm starting this podcast. Speaking on the microphone is something I quite enjoy, if I haven't mentioned that already. I don't know what's going to happen with this… https://5pmtapes.com/tape-2/ https://5pmtapes.com/tape-2/ Welcome to episode two of my podcast. As you discovered recently, I love using my voice. After hearing my first recording and listening to some feedback, I realized I need to improve a little bit with how I podcast. I think the way I… https://5pmtapes.com/tape-1/ https://5pmtapes.com/tape-1/ Hello. This is the first time where I record a voice entry—just give me a second. I want to talk about me, in general. The past year has been heavy for me. I went through a breakup, I went through an identity crisis, and I dealt with…